Take a walk on the thin line between hope and despair in Actual Sunlight: A short interactive story about love, depression and the corporation.
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Veröffentlichung: 3. Apr. 2014

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“The Biggest Challenge In This Game Is Preventing Your Character From Committing Suicide”

“Actual Sunlight Is The Hardest Hitting Game About Depression I’ve Ever Played”

“Actual Sunlight is a brutal depiction of a man’s life self-destructing, and it’s a game whose central character can only find hope in his own death.”
Rock, Paper, Shotgun

Über dieses Spiel

“I know what you’re thinking: Why keep getting up, day in and day out, even though your life is going nowhere?”

Notorious: Widely considered to be one of the bleakest and best-written experiences in indie gaming, Actual Sunlight challenges you to confront the life of Evan Winter: An overweight, lonely and severely depressed young professional.

Fear the words, not the reading: Presented almost entirely in text, a mixture of sharp observation and pitch black humor captures your interest from provocative beginning to shattering conclusion.

Prepare yourself: Actual Sunlight is a uniquely unforgettable adventure that will etch itself into you as one of the most difficult, haunting and beautiful experiences you have ever had as a gamer.

Key Features

  • An intense, heartbreaking story with themes of video game addiction, unsatisfying work and miserable solitude.
  • Beautiful, original pixel and CG artwork invokes the streets, offices and sanctuaries of Toronto, Canada.
  • Dark and moody original music sets a proper tone for the brutal indifference of real life.

Important Notice

Due to explicit language, Actual Sunlight is not appropriate for players under the age of 18.

It also deals with extremely mature themes, including depression and thoughts of suicide. Similar to other forms of art that tackle these issues, Actual Sunlight can be an extremely powerful emotional experience – before downloading it, please first consider what your reaction to a book, film or piece of music in a similar vein might be.

For immediate updates on the game, please follow Will O'Neill on Twitter: http://www.twitter.com/willoneill


    • Betriebssystem: Windows 98, XP, Vista, 7
    • Prozessor: Intel Pentium III 800 MHz
    • Arbeitsspeicher: 512 MB RAM
    • Grafik: 1024x768 High Color +
    • DirectX: Version 9.0
    • Speicherplatz: 100 MB verfügbarer Speicherplatz
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Sehr positiv (323 Reviews)
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( 1.4 Std. insgesamt )
Verfasst: 19. Juli
A trully touching experience.
As someone with many friends who suffer from depression, this game was hard to play, but I am glad I did. It gives insight into the downward spiral that people can fall into. Highly recommended for anyone who is has been impacted, either directly or indirectly, from depression. And really, who hasn't?
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Jan Arthur
( 1.9 Std. insgesamt )
Verfasst: 18. Juli
A short visual novel made in RPG Maker. Worth playing for the story, the writing is not the best, it could do with some editing. But overall an interesting tale about an "unlikable" character caught up in depression.
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( 3.3 Std. insgesamt )
Verfasst: 17. Juli
To developer: Have you ever tried to stop whine about your problems like a 8-years and try actually deal with them? And let me tell you: trying to force your negative emotions on others isn't the best way to make friends.
To customer: not recomended. You will just waste your time and money, and ruin your mood in the process. Whenwhere you wish to enter the state of deppresion OR find a cure from it, i highly suggest you to play the "Everlasting summer". It much more superior, well-written and emotional game.
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( 2.1 Std. insgesamt )
Verfasst: 12. Juli
Pretentious and adverb dense prose that champions the exact failings it is railing against.

No real branching. No replay value.

This is another one of those "games" that is best appreciated for the quick achievement and 100% completion and nothing more.
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( 2.8 Std. insgesamt )
Verfasst: 9. Juli
A short interactive RPG maker narrative that makes you think about one thing or another.
As the protagonist is essentially an average every day male, it was confronting for me.
The writing was definitely, sadly relatable.
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( 3.9 Std. insgesamt )
Verfasst: 5. Juli
If you seek an interesting gameplay, storyline, descision makes like virtual novel, don't buy this game.

Even though I'm not a Male, and haven't have a working experience. I found myself in the game character, Evan Winter. I guess this applied to all people who struggling with Depression wherever they are, and as it's said this is not a game, this is a potrait.

This is not a virtual novel, you can't make too much descision, its a linear route with mostly deep narative about the Character and his other character inside his head. The character Evan Winter is someone who suffers super greatly from Depression and nearly on losing all the hope, everything just wrong, and no one care about him anyway. He do what he dislike, just trying to get a hold on his life, wishing everything will be okay one day.

In my life at least until I found that I suffers greatly from Depression, most of people around me was like "no, its just your imagination" , "you're just tired." "you need to pray to God" ,etc... Hell no... you don't know how its feels like to fighing with yourself again and again and again, and if others ask...I just can't describe it and in the end all I'm saying just " I don't know"

If you ever had someone you loves, your friend, your family, or someone who dear to you suffers from Depression, I really really recommend you to buy this game. Probably the problems not the same, but at least try to understand the feelings, try to understand what they've being through. As someone who struggling too I could say that its rough, tiring , and troublesome for someone who didn't understand how it feels to accompanied someone who suffers Depression, but if that person important to you, do your best to be by their side and supports them.

Probably usually you won't take a long time to finish this game, but around 1 hour will be enough to really understand the creator's messages.

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Kind Deception
( 2.9 Std. insgesamt )
Verfasst: 14. Juni
I received a coupon for this game, after reading the description I decided to buy it and play it for one of those days. The story was short and felt linear, but it did touch on difficult subjects. It started off with humor and relatable concepts, that began subtle then revealed for what it was towards the end. The majority of it is reading transcripts of what the protagonist has done with some interaction with his coworkers and people in his life. The protagonist's relationship with his coworkers, how they view themselves and how he views himself through them were a central focus to the narrative.

It was described to be profound, a deep narrative on the troubles of depression. While it did provide the struggles, the things we often tell ourselves "I'll start tomorrow", it was one person's experience. An experience to say, don't let it consume you because by the time you realize it was not worth troubling yourself over, it will be too late. There are more concepts I wish this story did deal with rather than forward time and let it be another day, which is still a concept of itself to how life will seem to move even if you don't.

I recommend this for the messages it has, there is a lot to pull out directly and subjectively with the most important one I believe: if you're still young then don't act like your life is over otherwise your choices will make sure of it.

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( 2.5 Std. insgesamt )
Verfasst: 1. Juni
It wasn't until I noticed I needed to clock more time in this game to unlock all the available cards that I realized how much I hated playing this game. The main character was both unbelievably boring and unimaginably irritating and I didn't want to spend more time with him. And that's what makes this game so good, and why you should play it.

It isn't meant to be fun, or happy. It isn't meant to leave you with a sense of accomplishment. This is a game that gives you a virtual experience of what depression can be for some people. This game is hard to play, and I don't mean in a Dark Souls way, I mean in an emotionally draining, exhausting way.

I'd suggest, if/when you play this game, to consider how the game makes you feel. The anger and frustration with the character is completely valid. The boredom is completely valid. Now imagine that instead of those feelings being directed at a game, it's directed at your life. That infuriating character with the dialog that drives you crazy is your own internal dialog. Yep, you absolutely know better than to do the stupid things he keeps doing. Yup, you can see how things are going to unfold from the moment you start playing,and eventually you're rushing though everything just to finish the damn game with the obvious ending. Yup, everything would be better if he would just stop whining for a moment. But he won't. Welcome to what depression is for some people.

What makes this game so good isn't the gameplay. It's how much it makes you dislike it that makes it good. If you have never experienced severe depression, this might give you an idea so you can understand what a friend/family member is experiencing. If you have experienced it, consider this a window into someone else's experience, so you can see how things are similar and completely different all at the same time. But most of all, please don't play this game if you aren't safe right now...take care of yourself. Come back to this when you're in a good place - depression isn't easy at the best of times, and double dipping the depression can't be a good thing.
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Nicholas Dust
( 1.9 Std. insgesamt )
Verfasst: 4. Mai
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I managed to grab a copy of this game for free. I do not remember how, but I did. So I figured it was finally time to dust it off and put it in the virtual CD drive (e.g. load it up on Steam). So I did. And the game was... interesting.

I would not really call this a game at all. It is more of an interactive story. The character in the game is battling a severe case of suicidal depression. The game serves as a window into the character’s life and thoughts, and gives you the option of continuing his “ordinary” daily life. You go to work, you interact with people, you go home. Almost every interaction with an object or person leads to an inner monologue in which the character is recalling some passage he wrote, or a conversation with a therapist, or a television interview. As you progress, the nature of these recollections becomes more and more clear, and you gain further insight into the true mental state of the character.

Throughout the game you are met with the recurring thought of Go up to the roof of the building and jump off. Ordinarily I would not spoil a game in a review, but given the sensitive nature of the ending I believe it best to warn you of what may be coming. That recurring thought becomes more and more prevalent, until it takes over the character’s thoughts and actions. In the end, your “choices” are restricted and regardless of what option you take you find the same end. You are on the roof, and the character’s suicide is implied, but never explicitly stated.

The graphics in the game are typical of an RPGMaker game. Pixellated sprites and environments run abound. However, the game does interject the occasional hand-drawn scene - these scenes definitely do the game justice, capturing the emotion of each character quite well.

All in all this is not a game I would recommend to most people. Only pick this up if you are looking for a game that falls into the “games are art” category, as this serves more as a commentary on what it is like to battle depression.

And it serves that purpose well, having hit home on multiple occasions with my own experiences.
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( 0.9 Std. insgesamt )
Verfasst: 4. Mai
I know Actual Sunlight says that it's short. But it's *really* short if you can read quickly.
I really didn't attach to the character at all, and didn't really find any of the statements in it that impactful. It advertises itself as 18+, but so many themes like this are dealt with in young adult fiction (14+ year old). If I hadn't read reviews saying things like "brutal depiction" and "hardest hitting game about depression I've ever played", maybe I'd have had lower expectations and would've enjoyed it more.

It's not *bad* per say, but, I'd recommend waiting for it to be on sale.

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1 von 1 Personen (100 %) fanden dieses Review hilfreich
1.4 Std. insgesamt
Verfasst: 19. Juli
A trully touching experience.
As someone with many friends who suffer from depression, this game was hard to play, but I am glad I did. It gives insight into the downward spiral that people can fall into. Highly recommended for anyone who is has been impacted, either directly or indirectly, from depression. And really, who hasn't?
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3 von 5 Personen (60 %) fanden dieses Review hilfreich
Nicht empfohlen
2.1 Std. insgesamt
Verfasst: 12. Juli
Pretentious and adverb dense prose that champions the exact failings it is railing against.

No real branching. No replay value.

This is another one of those "games" that is best appreciated for the quick achievement and 100% completion and nothing more.
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7 von 7 Personen (100 %) fanden dieses Review hilfreich
1.3 Std. insgesamt
Verfasst: 23. Juni 2014
Wer auf interaktive Geschichten steht wird mit 'Actual Sunlight' nichts falsch machen. Man bekommt einen guten Eindruck des Gefühls vermittelt, wie sich Menschen fühlen die mit einer hoffnungslosen Depressionen zu kämpfen haben. Das Spiel selbst besteht aus vielen Textpassagen von der Spielfigur Evan Winter. Daher sollte man sich ein wenig Zeit zum lesen nehmen. Auch mit seinen grafischen Untermalungen bringt das Spiel genau den Charakter und dessen Hoffnungslosigkeit und depressiven Stimmungen zum Ausdruck. Es ist absolut den Kauf wert.
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6 von 6 Personen (100 %) fanden dieses Review hilfreich
1.2 Std. insgesamt
Verfasst: 20. Juli 2014
Empfehlenswert, wenn man das Leben aus der Perspektive eines depressiven, selbstmordgefährdeten Menschen erleben möchte, ansonsten wird man wahrscheinlich davon enttäuscht sein.

Es ist kein richtiges Spiel, sondern eine Erzählung, die den RPGmaker als Transportmittel benutzt.

Viel mehr als meine Spielzeit, wie sie angegeben ist, gibt es nicht, aber die verbrachte Zeit war es für mich persönlich wert.
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2 von 3 Personen (67 %) fanden dieses Review hilfreich
1 Person fand dieses Review lustig
0.6 Std. insgesamt
Verfasst: 23. Januar
definition of sad
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81 von 91 Personen (89 %) fanden dieses Review hilfreich
13.5 Std. insgesamt
Verfasst: 17. April 2014
As a person that suffers greatly from depression, this game was highly relatable. Feeling like no one understands you or bothers to even care about your issues. Kind of having deep conversations with yourself, and fighting with yourself. Depression is terrible and I wouldn't wish that on anyone...so to see this kind of scenario actually laid before me in such a well written manner was refreshing..but also saddening. Although I wouldn't handle most of my situations like the main character did, I could still empathize and actually feel care towards the character. In my opinion this game is something everyone should play and give a thought to..even if its only just once. There's a bunch of reading..well its basically an "interactive story", but it was well worth the read.The author makes valid points towards the current state of society, how we treat our fellow man, and things that most people wouldn't publicly say. I honestly hope whoever reads this will pick this game up and see for themselves.

"Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." Right..?
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87 von 105 Personen (83 %) fanden dieses Review hilfreich
4.0 Std. insgesamt
Verfasst: 3. April 2014
For anyone who has ever suffered through the many stages of depression or felt like the world was crumbling around them while you just sat there and watched. This is the game for you. It's also for the people that have friends going through this.
The game is very text heavy, there is no gameplay as such. It's more an interactive story on social commentary, past events and life as some people know it. It's a work of art. And no, not that 'Dear Esther' kind of art.

It will be different things for different people, but if you relate at all to the subjects this game covers you can expect it to deliver in spades.

Thank you so much for sharing Will O'Neill. :)
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73 von 87 Personen (84 %) fanden dieses Review hilfreich
4 Personen fanden dieses Review lustig
1.4 Std. insgesamt
Verfasst: 10. Dezember 2014
Actual Sunlight is an indie title about depression.

This game contains strong triggers towards thoughts and feelings such as suicide and depression. Please make sure you are in a strong mental well-being before playing this game. I have listed all the suicide hotlines that I know of, they are available below.

You will probably never play a game quite like Actual Sunlight.

The story follows a man named Evan Winter, who is struggling with depression. Straight away you sense that he has lost nearly all hope, and is only hanging on because he hopes it will pass.

Evan’s problems are taking their toll. He works for a company he doesn’t respect, with many employees he doesn’t respect, he is overweight and wants to try and change that, but work is dragging him down. He keeps spending money on video-games when he thinks he is wasting his life. Everything in his life seems to have a problem with it, which leaves him with such a depressed mind that no matter how hard he tries to be optimistic, everything seems to be overwhelming to the point where he can’t see past the bad.

Evan has been given advice from people on how to live his life. About how he should “lighten up,” or how he should look at the world. Things that many depressed people have been told. But it isn’t helping them, because it is a mental issue, so merely changing your perspective on something won’t help because the thing you need to change isn’t an easy issue to fix. Evan will laugh it off or make self-deprecating jokes, or merely try to deny it. But underneath is that little bit of honesty that they really hope you hear, because they are too scared to say it directly.

Actual Sunlight was made with RPGMaker by one man, Will O’Neill. But behind it’s simple graphics is an incredibly powerful story.

This “game” is brutally honest with it’s writing, it’s like being in the head-space of someone or reading their diary, it is SO incredibly personal. But I do think it contains a story that needs to be played by people to truly understand what it is like, at least to the best possible ability. It isn’t a game I would recommend to someone going through depression unless they feel they can 100% handle it. But I do think anyone with a family member, friend or colleague that might have depression, should play this game, so they can truly understand their loved one.

This game isn’t one I can score, because it would be like trying to score someone’s life, someone’s thoughts, someone’s journey, it would almost invalidate everything I have said. But if you have a loved one suffering through depression, take the hour and a half to finish this game and try to understand what they must be going through. It’s a rough journey, but you should be by their side to the best of your ability.

If you need help, please talk to someone or contact your country’s suicide hotline below.


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Disclaimer: This review was written gradually over 6 or so months, if others have voiced their opinions that have been voiced similar to mine over that time that is by coincidence.
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61 von 70 Personen (87 %) fanden dieses Review hilfreich
1 Person fand dieses Review lustig
1.9 Std. insgesamt
Verfasst: 9. April 2014
Depression can be incredibly destructive. Some of you know really well how it makes everything worse. You don't enjoy things you liked. You don't want to do anything, it doesn't make any sense to you. In some cases you want to die to run away from your depression.

This game... or an interactive story... is about this.

Don't go to the roof. Life is cool.
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53 von 60 Personen (88 %) fanden dieses Review hilfreich
14 Personen fanden dieses Review lustig
3.0 Std. insgesamt
Verfasst: 11. Juli 2015
Jesus Christ. I need to work on my resume. Eat right. Maybe start a blog. Write a novel. Hell, anything but keep moving forward on the same path.

The main character even LOOKS like me.

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