Sometimes to Deal with the Difficulty of Being Alive, I Need to Believe There Is a Possibility That Life Is Not Real.
A video experience, a simulation, a game that plays itself, a database of games, an absurdist, sci-fi play, emails going to nowhere, conversation starters, meditations, secret lairs, fights, break-dancing, play on a network, play by yourself, don’t play at all and just watch, set it up in a gallery, set it up at a party...
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Very Positive (75) - 85% of the 75 user reviews for this game are positive.
Release Date:
May 20, 2019

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About This Game

**This current version is for an exhibition at Denny Dimin gallery in New York from May 23-June 30, 2019**

This software is morphable to what you want it to be. It can be a small database of games, a downloadable art show, a simulation, a moving painting, an album, an existential crisis, a talisman, a play, a meditation, a spell, a forest, a distopian nightmare, a joke.

The amount of interaction and exploration is not a ton. If you explore and play through everything it would take maybe an hour or so at most.
-There are small games and walking sims to play on machines in abandoned buildings.
-You can chat with other players in the multiplayer mode and see if they are human or machine
-There is a band and a small secret lair
-There is no beginning or end
-There is no winning or losing

And there is an infinite, dramatic cycle of accumulation and destruction:

Hit the number 3 key. You can choose the perspective of 3 NPC actors or a stage overview. They are acting out an absurdist play. They are the sole survivors of a human apocalypse. They are trying to procreate to start civilization over again but they’re having a hard time. They are sending emails to nowhere, gossiping, meditating, taking naps, cleaning up. They’re collecting artifacts around the stage and building a machine. When the machine is done it generates an AI and then blows up.

To see what the NPCs do you can leave the simulation on at a party, in a room while you are doing other things, etc. It could run for many hours and you will see, read and hear different things.
If you have a few computers you can link them up and see different perspectives at once. With multiple channels of the atmospheric sounds it becomes a sort of instrument or generative album as well.

Before you download, I encourage you to download the 100+ page manual which I am giving away for free. Click the “View the manual” on the right hand side of this page and download it.

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-This is not for everyone. If you’re looking for some fun, addicting type game with slick mechanics do not download this.
-Play in single player mode, start a server or join a server. LAN works but usually from the .exe directly rather than from the app inside Steam.

Mature Content Description

The developers describe the content like this:

There is some language that might be offensive. There is some talk of sex and drugs.

System Requirements

    • OS: Windows 10
    • Processor: Dual Core 2.4Ghz
    • Memory: 8 MB RAM
    • Graphics: Nvidia GTX 750 or higher
    • DirectX: Version 11
    • Network: Broadband Internet connection
    • Storage: 3 GB available space
    • OS: Windows 10
    • Processor: i7
    • Memory: 16 MB RAM
    • Graphics: Nvidia GTX 980
    • DirectX: Version 11
    • Storage: 4 GB available space

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