This game was amazing. back in alpha and beta (before steam) this game had character, feel, grit. you were these massive hulking machines fighting for the chance, not just to win, but to live. I got sucked into this game, Hawken had me from the start, throwing everything down on the line and if you were good enough, you might have a chance. each mech had a role, a purpose. if you were a heavy you mopped up the damage and shot it back, mediums you flew into battle supporting your heavies, laying down the dps, flanking, out dancing the opponents. lights healed their teammates, sniped the weak and chased down the enemies too cowardly to fight with low hp. damn, i miss that game.
but the merge with steam, brought patch after patch. less hp, less damage, less "TTK", less players, less fun, longer ques, more caustic interactions, more whinning, more sweeping loses, less hard earned wins.
after the devs nuked this game, then gave up on it. its this complex machine without any fire left. and that hurts the most. i think of it as an amazing one night stand, quick deep lustful passionate heartwrenching mind boggling, then you wake up and its over, they left you now have to fill that void that is so apparent empty now. i miss that game. ♥♥♥♥.